Divine SUN

Even the most disciplined, spiritually aligned, and accomplished people go through emotional fluctuations. This is something I had to learn myself. For a long time, I believed that once I “reached” a certain level of awareness or healing, my emotions would stabilize permanently. I thought enlightenment meant constant peace. But that’s not true. Not for me, not for anyone — and certainly not according to the ancient spiritual systems that explain humanity’s origin.

We are not meant to be emotionless. We are meant to feel, because feeling is the language of the soul.

And I’ve come to understand this through the same spiritual frameworks I use to understand creation itself — Kabbalah and Yoruba cosmology.


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We Were Created From Emotion — So We Experience Emotion

In Kabbalah, the Divine did not create the universe through logic or structure first. The first movement of existence was Chesed — unconditional love expanding outward. That means our original substance is love.

In Yoruba teachings, life could not emerge until Oshun, the spirit of sweetness and emotional flow, entered creation. Without love, nothing could grow. Without emotion, nothing could form.

This tells me something simple but profound:

> If the universe was born from emotion, then emotion is not a weakness. It is the proof of life.

So when my emotions rise and fall — joy, confusion, heaviness, clarity — I remind myself: I am not failing. I am feeling. And to feel is to be alive.


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Even the Masters Felt

Think about it:

Orunmila did not always have instant clarity; he consulted through divination.

Moses felt overwhelmed.

David cried in the Psalms.

Oshun herself withdrew her sweetness when she was disrespected — and the world fell into chaos.


If divine archetypes experience emotional movement, why would I judge myself for being human?

Even the sun rises and sets. Even the ocean shifts with the moon. Even breath — the essence of life — moves in and out.

So why should my spirit be expected to stay still?


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Fluctuation Is Not Confusion — It Is Flow

There are days I feel deeply connected — like I remember exactly who I am: made of divine love, guided, protected, aligned.
And there are days I feel heavy, uncertain, or tired.

But I am learning:

> This is not being “lost.” This is being alive in a universe of cycles.



In Yoruba understanding, life is a rhythm. In Kabbalah, existence moves between expansion and contraction. Even our hearts beat through pulsing motion — not stillness.

So emotional fluctuation is not failure. It is energetic breathing.


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You Are Not Lost — You Are Moving

When emotions change, it does not mean:

You have gone backwards.

Your healing has undone itself.

Your growth has been erased.


It means:

A new layer is surfacing.

A deeper part of you is being revealed.

Your spirit is transitioning to a new frequency.


Healing isn’t a straight path — it’s a spiral. Understanding returns in new forms. You meet yourself again at higher levels.

And every time you feel, you are reconnecting with your origin — love that moves.


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My Truth Now

I don’t try to “control” my emotions anymore. I listen to them. I don’t try to “stay consistent” to prove maturity — I allow myself to flow. I don’t shame myself for fluctuating — I remember that:

> The same force that created the stars created me through love that moves.

So when my emotions shift, I don’t say: “I’m lost.”

I say: “I’m transitioning.”
I’m evolving. I’m breathing. I’m becoming. I’m remembering myself again.

And so are you.
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Conclusion

You don’t need to fear the days you feel uncertain. You don’t need to judge yourself for being emotional. You don’t need to think something is wrong with you.
You are not lost.

You are simply a divine being experiencing movement.
Just like the heavens, the ocean, the planets, the pulse of life itself.

You are made of love, and love moves.